Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I have spent the last two nights re-reading the journals whose pages have been filled with my constant ramblings, doodles, photographs & bits of inspiration for the past two or so years. I have been rediscovering my muses, falling in love all over again with someone i've never fallen out of love with, & reminiscing on all the small little moments in my life that really shaped who i am now.  I have found it quite necessary to keep a settled mind by going back in time every now & then to gather pieces of the past for inspiration for the present & future. 

At one point in my journaling, i was reading the book Cunt:A Declaration of Independence
(which Natalie let me borrow, of course) I had written a quote from it that i found quite interesting, "when rabbits find themselves pregnant in times of severe environmental stress, they absorb their young back into their bodies." I have searched up & down for information on this, but to not avail!

Also, if things go as planned, i will be making an almost last-minute trip to Columbia to see my best friend in a little over a week & i am more than excited. This will be my first time to drive a long distance alone, but i actually feel that it will be good for me.
Just a little self-exploration, you know?
Mom, you & Dad don't worry too much, k?

So after writing what seems to be a rather sporadic entry, I'll leave you with my favorite photo from my first & only roll of 120 film i developed from the Diana+ camera Nicholas bought me for my birthday:

6 comments:

Natalie Freeman said...

Oh, I really hope you can come & see me! People keep trying to make plans with me but I keep saying, "no! I can't! My best friend is coming into town!!!" :)

love, lots of love!

Mark Samuel Monroe said...

You are going to have a blast if you go!
I need to look back on some of my old thoughts. Most of which were mildly depressing. ha, but the truth.
you are so beautiful inside and out tori.
love you

Natalie Freeman said...

I hope it is okay that I sent yours with your parents! I ran out so I hope that is okay!!

Lael Meidal said...

It's so good and necessary (and, hopefully, sweet) to look back on the past and see where we've come.

I love this shot on your Diana, Tori. I'm dying to get myself a Diana or Holga!

Oh, and I responded to your tag...finally...thanks. It was fun.

Keeper of the Skies Wife said...

First off....I love looking back at my old journals. It can be kina therapeutic.

Second, Love the picture from your Diana.

Last, DUH, I am going to worry no matter what. That's my jobs as a mom!!

Yankee Girl said...

I love your mom's blog so I thought I'd stop by. I read Cunt as well and think everyone over the age of 14 should read it. I really enjoyed your photos.